Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Lots of Emotions Right Now

Isaiah 40:31 But those who wait on the LORD shall renew their strength; They shall mount up with wings like eagles, They shall run and not be weary, They shall walk and not faint. (NKJV)

I am trying to be patient during this long wait. There are several emotions that I experience these days with regard to my adoption of 'Caroline' ..... uncertainty .... anger .... sadness ..... impatience.... renewed faith.....more uncertainty.....more impatience....renewed strength.....longing for my daughter.........hope that referrals will speed up.......disappointment when referrals are so slow.....wondering - of when I'll get my Caroline.

After all, I'm 50-years-old and single. I still feel called to China and I must hang on to my adoption agency....it is my only chance. I am SO trying to stay positive.....I'm SO trying to trust God in this process. My heart knows that God is in control and is orchestrating this process.....my head doesn't always want to listen.

I am waiting for my adoption agency to receive their Hague accreditation so that the special needs children will be available again. I will definitely put my name on that list. That is one thing that I feel I must do with certainty.

So, I've got to wait upon the Lord. In His time. That is so hard sometimes.

Blessings to all. Thank you for your prayers and support.

1 comment:

McMary said...

My prayers are with you.
I have to believe that God does not give us such strong desires unless they can be fulfilled somehow. I pray for your dreams to come true.